Superpower or Curse? Search me.

I have never written a blog. I had no intention to ever write a blog in my lifetime. That’s as honest as I possibly can be about this whole sordid affair. Taking that sentiment one step further, I find the whole idea of blog to be at best a bit silly and at worst self-aggrandizing. I can’t imagine that anyone, anywhere, will be interested in what I have to say on any topic, so in that optimistic spirit I embark in this endeavor, firmly determined to turn this into a hodge-podge—some might say a compendium, I myself will call it a cesspit—of my many random thoughts and stray musings.

To kick off this ill-advised endeavor, I thought I would introduce myself. However, considering the previous paragraph, whoever does read this probably will have pretty good feel for my personality already. Too late to turn back now though. Onward we go.

But where to begin?

So many people start with where they were born or where they grew up. I must confess I’m not the biggest fan of that. Others talk about their interests—what kinds of movies they like to watch or their enthusiasm for the outdoors. I kind of shying away from that as well. Besides, I talked a little about both those things in my author bio, and I hate needless repetition.

How about I tell you all about a blessing/curse that I have, one that has kept me pursuing this dream, that some would call foolhardy, to become a full-time author?

I’m stubborn.

That’s it short and sweet (like me). But like I said, this attribute is a two edged sword. On one side, it keeps me laser focused on what I want, ever driving toward the end goal despite what others might say or do. On the other side, it keeps me focused to the exclusion of all else and I mean all else: friends, family, flaws in plans, realistic expectations, and on and on and on, yada yada yada. You know the whole spiel.

I suppose though in order to pursue a career that most call a hobby a person has to possess a certain dogged determination that allows for the deliberate ignoring of naysayers and the like. I don’t say any of this to put myself up on a pedestal. I have met many different people far more determined and smarter too and that combination normally allowed them to get things done more quickly and efficiently.

My gift/curse isn’t infallible nor inexhaustible. From time to time I need a jumpstart, a boost, a kick in the head.

Some might wonder why I’m admitting all of this to the wide expanse of the internet. Honest answer: I don’t know. Maybe it will do some good. Maybe it won’t. Only time will tell. I sincerely hope for the former. I hope that maybe some aspiring writer out there might feel not so alone; that they can find the encouragement to keep trying; that this might be the kick to rouse their faltering stubbornness. That’s my hope.